I was beginning to wonder if the police had given up my search and left the scene. When the train came to a stop about 15 minutes earlier I jumped off and considered running to safety, but southern Wyoming lacks any vegetation taller than knee-high grass. I walked about 30 feet to the sagging barbed wire fence just past the edge of the tracks. The views stretched unobstructed for miles which meant the cops would have an easier time hunting me down than finding a Dunkin Donuts in NYC. Because of the curves of the track and the train’s length, I couldn’t tell if the police cars were still parked at the back of the train. I quickly made my way back to the train to ponder my predicament. Sitting still with adrenaline pumping for what seemed like an eternity was too much to take so I decided to jump off to get a better look again. As I landed on the crushed granite I looked under the train and saw, at that exact moment, a cop looking underneath from the other side! Just as fast as I had landed, I was back up on my grain car.
Two hours earlier I was sitting under the Elm canopy on the campus of Colorado State University. It was May 2009 and I was almost done with my Master’s Degree in Education. I had just finished my student teaching and had nothing more to do for the semester than compile my portfolio, write some essays, and check off some boxes. The problem was this culminating project was due the next day and I was completely burnt out. I had made it 98% of the way through the most difficult semester of my life but hit an emotional wall of despair inches short of the finish line. It was a classic example of self-sabotage. I had a tendency to do this with school assignments, especially the written kind. I had always had an irrational fear of writing. In fact, when I was a senior in high school I didn’t apply to colleges that required entrance essays. Obviously, by this point, my 7th year of college, I had written a couple of papers. Still, I was mentally and emotionally done with the semester and in need of an escape.
I had just made the one hour drive from Denver to Fort Collins for the 30th time in five months and decided to sit under those old Elm trees in The Oval of CSU. The Oval is the grassy area on campus, surrounded by beautiful brick buildings from an era when inspirational architecture was considered an important aspect of the collegiate experience. The library would have been a more prudent destination choice but in the self-destructive game of “how close can I get to success before failing”, the calm beauty of the shady Elms was irresistible.
Despair was getting a stronghold of me when I heard the tooting of a horn indicating that a northbound train was approaching campus from the south of town. I chugged the last of my Mountain Dew and threw the cup and Subway sandwich wrapper in the trash as I ran towards the tracks! This train, like many of the trains that pass through campus and Old Town Fort Collins, rolled at a slow enough pace along the eastern edge of campus that I was able to run along the side of the train, grab the ladder, and pull myself up mid-gait.
My mood instantly changed from despair to excitement as I climbed to the top of the grainer. Normally I would try to stay hidden while riding through a populated area but I was so excited about my newfound freedom I wasn’t even concerned about being seen. (or about my not-quite-completed paper) Instead of sitting on the porch of the train car I decided to climb the ladder to the top. The train was composed primarily of grainers which were flat on top. Because of this useful feature, I was able to walk along the top of the train and jump from car to car as it was rolling north. The ride through Northern Colorado was beautiful and green. From my perch high on top of the train, I waved at the people waiting in their cars and a farmer who was driving his tractor alongside the tracks. I’m not sure why but people (especially boys) really enjoy seeing freight train riders.
As we (the train and I) approached Wyoming, a small storm blew in from the mountains to the west so I climbed down to a porch on a car in the middle of the train. As long as the wind isn’t blowing from the side, it is generally possible to stay dry on a porch. This particular afternoon I was fairly lucky in that regard and the storm blew east just as fast as it had rolled in.
The track generally paralleled I-25 about a mile west but the track turned and ran alongside the highway for long enough to see the “Welcome to Wyoming” sign followed by a half a dozen huge billboards for fireworks stands.
Just after we passed into Wyoming the train began to slow down. I stood up to see what might be causing the slowdown and before I could stick my head out the side, we passed cops on both sides of the train looking in at me. “Maybe they didn’t see me,” I thought. “If the train keeps on rolling I should be ok.” My daily dose of luck had run out, however, and the train came to a stop next to another train parked on the siding. I jumped off the train and climbed over the cars on the siding to get my bearings and to see if the cops followed the train to its resting spot.
As I looked around the trains I realized that the train on the siding was actually just a line of cars with no engine attached. I also saw that my best opportunity of escape would be to run the ¾ of a mile to the highway and hitch a ride back into Colorado before the cops caught me. The two major flaws with this escape plan were:
1. I would be entirely within view of the police during my attempted escape. There was no vegetation to hide behind.
2. If I did manage to beat the police to the highway, I would need an instant ride because the cops would be seconds behind me. (From previous experience I knew that Wyomingites were quite reluctant to pick up hitchhikers.)
As soon as I realized escape was impossible, I noticed the police were at the end of the trains beginning their car-by-car search. I hustled back to the tracks and jumped onto the porch of a car on the siding to think about the best move going forward.
It occurred to me that riding in plain sight must have caught the attention of many people and while I thought everyone was excited to see a hobo riding the rails, in reality, somebody wasn’t so happy and called the authorities. I also remember that Jim Stobie (Stobe the Hobo) had warned me about train hopping near the Air Force base in Cheyenne. In all my excitement about being on the rails, I had completely forgotten that this line passed right through the base. Apparently, the US Air Force doesn’t like unauthorized trespassers.
I looked to the side of the train car before jumping and couldn’t see anybody. I hadn’t seen or heard any cops for what seemed like an eternity but decided to take it cautiously. As I jumped onto the crushed granite below I looked under the train and at that exact moment, there was a cop at the other end of the car looking under from the back! I instantly jumped back on, assuming, but not knowing for sure, if he had seen me.
Quickly, different possible scenarios flashed into my mind! My best chance of being let off with a slap on the wrist, I decided, was to surrender to the authorities, apologize profusely, and promise to become a law-abiding citizen and contributing member of society. But, then I thought about the cost of stopping the train and the man-hours of sending two squad cars to spend an hour searching an entire train. They wouldn’t go to all this trouble to give a hobo a warning. They would want a significant reward for their trouble and that reward would probably come in the form of charging the bum with a crime! (Maybe a gentle beating too) I also thought about my upcoming job prospects as a teacher. I could hear the first interview question, “Mr. O’Brien, I see you have a felony trespass on your record. Can you tell me about that and how long ago it occurred?” Never mind, they would surely weed me out before the first interview.
Then I remembered back to a crime show I had watched a few years prior in which a detective explained most murderers were caught because they confessed to their crimes. I had told myself way back then that unlike all those poor suckers rotting in a jail cell, I wouldn’t self-incriminate if I was ever guilty of a heinous crime. (I also decided that I would watch old reruns of these shows beforehand if I ever decide to commit murder. It seemed like the logical move at the time and I still don’t know why more hardened criminals fail to perform this basic research. The detectives give away all sorts of secrets on those shows.) Back at the train tracks, I hadn’t committed any heinous crime (as far as I knew) but these cops were sure acting otherwise. Either way, I remembered the lesson and I promised myself I wouldn’t ever give in until I was dragged off the train in cuffs.
There was a small hole, just barely big enough to fit in, accessible from the porch on my end of the grain car. In normal circumstances, these make great hiding places that are almost impossible to see into from nearby roads. But in this case, with cops walking from car to car looking for the perpetrator, it wouldn’t provide sufficient cover. It would just trap me. I decided I would have a better chance climbing the ladder to the top of the grainer.
As I climbed up, I could see a cop car on the left of the train and another on the right, a couple of train cars back. I figured I could climb to the top where nobody could see me from the ground and I would be safe until they passed on. As I reached the top of the train, however, I looked forward and realized they had that covered too! Just a couple of train cars back there was a cop standing on top looking directly towards me. My instinct told me to surrender and I just about did, but I forced myself to not give in. I folded myself forward onto the top of the grain car on my belly and scooted forward until my legs and feet cleared the end of the car, kept my head down and remained perfectly flat. From this position, the cops down below wouldn’t be able to see me but the cop standing up on top of the train a couple of cars down could see me if he looked just right. However, because of the angle and me lying perfectly flat, I wouldn’t be nearly as easy to spot as somebody sitting or standing. As long as I remained perfectly still he might look right over the top of me without realizing it. Somehow, he didn’t see me!
I remained perfectly still in this position until I was sure the officers below had passed my car. Quickly jumping back down to the porch, I crawled into the hole and pulled my backpack in behind me. After just a couple of minutes, the train I rode in on, on the track next to me, rolled back from the direction we had come. After it cleared the stationary train I was on, it switched directions, sped up, and continued north, deep into Wyoming without me.
I waited in my hole until I felt sure that nobody was around, then carefully squeezed out, looked in every direction, and hopped off the train. Never in my life had I imagined how happy I would be to be abandoned in the middle of nowhere, Wyoming! I didn’t want to be seen in that state at all, on the roads or the rails, so I jogged south through fields for a couple of miles until I reached Colorado. It was only at this point that I felt comfortable making my way to the highway to hitchhike a ride back home.
I haven’t hopped a train since then. You might think I learned my lesson. I wouldn’t go that far. The lesson I did learn, however, is not to give up, even when it’s clear hope is lost, even when the enemy has me trapped and I’m sure they’ve seen me. Don’t give up. Don’t give in. Keep fighting for freedom!
And as far as the paper was concerned, I didn’t get it written in time. My professor was a kind soul and gave me permission to extend the semester into the Summer. Later that Summer, I did get the degree and the teaching job I had hoped for.